It's nearly 1am and on a normal day nowadays, I'm fast asleep. 

Been a while since I've had time to myself like this. 

Life can just throw things down your throat and before you know it, you don't even realise that you have not had time to come up for air. Big decisions, weighing priorities, making sacrifices - it's all part of growing up, isn't it? 

I was recently at a training program, and it was two hours away from the city. On the drive back, we were all exhausted and to keep myself awake, I tried to pay attention to the radio - they were discussing urban development and the rising property prices. To my surprise, it kept me wide awake and it was actually - gasp - interesting! I thought to myself - a year ago, I would be so overwhelmed by these big and 'boring' topics that I would retreat back to my comfortable shell. How things have changed. 

One can never be too comfortable can they? Pfft. I don't think I have ever been given much chance to even BE too comfortable. Never in the same place for more than a couple of years, with varying - but always present - levels of reluctance each time. Call me a wimp but I still long to either be back in my hometown for good or if I really have to leave again, at least it's something I want and with the person I want to be with. 

Ah, such a typical self-entitled, unrealistically idealistic Gen-Y young adult. Screw that. In this day and age, opportunities don't just come knocking, most of them are lying around, waiting to be discovered. If I'm going to give less than my best, I might as well not go for it. We live in a generation of creators. Accessible information. Rapid innovation. There is so much that can be done within these areas. It's just a matter of breaking through, isn't it? 

home again

There is a strange calm that comes over me as soon as I step off the plane, back home. My mind clears up almost immediately and its as if I just left every burden in the overhead compartment above my window seat. 

It might be that the hustle and bustle of city life has taken a toll on me, and the slower pace here brings the calm I so desperately seek. It might be the new found appreciation for fresh air, sunlight on my face in the morning, a fat cat that purrs around you - always welcoming despite the months of absence, all the fond memories of a time with less worries. 

It's a rainy day again today in good 'ol Kuching town. Today's Chinese New Year eve. 

The flight I was on was filled with people coming home for the holidays. Some were obviously excited, some were obviously dragging their feet, haha. 

I met a familiar face at the airport, someone I'd like to think of as a little sister. She let out a little shriek of excitement, "you're back!". That was about to be the start of many mini reunions, I knew it. This time of the year has always been about meeting up and catching up. Christmas was always more for family, Chinese New Year for me was always more about friends. Probably cause I'm not Chinese. Haha. 

This year is gonna be different, though. 

Despite being together for more than two years now, because of the distance, I've never been home to celebrate Chinese New Year with my better half. I am kinda nervous, mostly with the fact that I'll be with his family, although not for the major family-only events. It's not my time yet, haha. I am also excited because, hey, I'll be with him, what's there to complain about? :) 

Ah, I just noticed there is no structure to this post at all. I just wanted to do a little update, I guess.  

Now I'm going to finish off my coffee, edit more photos, and get ready for lunch with my love :) Oh how I wish I had more days like these.