knocksteady

Everyday I am more and more convinced that I am on a downward spiral to nowhere and that one day I will be the cause of my own destruction. 

I might be exaggerating. Or not. 

I'm talking about self-destruction in a sense that despite being in that "comfortable" position - scholarship, further education overseas, secured job after graduation - I still feel like I am drifting, that the real person all this was meant for, is away, and I'm just here as a temp while she's gone. And I'm just messing things up, being more involved and interested in things that are not at all related to what I SHOULD be doing. I feel a tinge of guilt when I hear friends doing internships in engineering companies over the summer. I didn't get any, to be fair I did try. But maybe I didn't try hard enough. 

What else did I apply for? What is the point of this? 

I applied to be a tutor in English summer camps in Italy. 

Which, I really wanted. Yet despite trying my best, I couldn't get. No surprise there though, why would anyone want to hire a Malaysian over an American/Australian/New Zealander to teach English?  

And then, here I am, reaching the point, the reason I decided to write this post:
I was on Facebook and I saw an update and it was a Summer Internship with Knocksteady

Are you kidding me?! 

So, a bit of background information. Ahem. I've been on Youtube way too often lately and as a result, I've gotten to know a lot more talented musicians and it's been a journey from one video to another, one genre to another, from Bristol to LA to Seoul. 

One particular guy that I've been following is Dumbfoundead. How? It was actually through Clara C, a friend posted up a video of her on Facebook. Her voice and style was exactly something he knew I liked. I went to her channel, liked her stuff and noticed she did a collab with Dumbfounded (DFD) and Jay Park. Jay Park! Yes, I will admit I have a girlcrush on him. (My sisters and their love for all things K-Pop approve ... to my reluctance.)

coughohcomeonhaveyounothadalittlecelebritycrushnowandthencough
*clears throat*
Anyway. 

Scrolling down to the comments, I noticed people were making a huge fuss over that song she did with DFD and Jay Park. I thought it was just cause its Jay Park. Then after a few more videos, I noticed, "Hey, this DFD guy has quite a presence in the hip hop scene". So I checked out his channel. 

I decided I liked him as soon as I read the description "walking bag of charisma, equipped with a blunted grin". I watched the videos. Approve. I like artists that pull off effortless wordplay, it gives me something to learn from. The tattoo on his arm scored extra points. Nice. 

So, back to the Internship. Knocksteady is basically DFD and a couple of other guys going after their passions through music/media/art etc, promoting positivity. Check out their website here. I really liked their idea of Knockstudy - giving teens the chance to build skills in DJing and music production. Something they never had where I come from. To be able to write for them would be.. An amazing experience. Wouldn't it be great if I were in the States right now? It would be more realistic to actually consider it an option that way. 

*mind whirling with a million possibilities* 

This is kinda cool. This also feels like a promo post for Dumbfoundead. Bleargh.

Hey, I just got really interested in these guys a few days back and suddenly I noticed an ad for an Internship with them, how can I not get a little excited? 

Excuses.  

*goes back to studying on propellers and hull resistance*

Edit: You know what else would be awesome? If Wong Fu Productions offered Summer Internships too. Unpaid, pfft. I want to be a part of the the whole film-making process too!